This one is dramatic. Listen, I don’t know where the hell I stand on all these horoscopes, zodiacs, and compatibility tests. Of course I have taken a moment and read them all, more than once. I still continue to give them a moment of my time. If I don’t like what they say, I will completely dismiss it because how could some robot know about what is really going on in my life? I do know where I stand on heartbreak. I know that heartbreak sucks. I think that I am a good person. By nature I am also a very competitive person. I love very hard and openly. I am stubborn, but always working on that. I make lots of mistakes. I have had my heart broken and it will happen again. I don’t think there are rules in this whole game of love. In fact I don’t think it is a game at all. Maybe that is where it has all gone wrong. We have reached a point where we don’t take the time to give anyone our undivided attention. Of course I could sit here and type out a million times that I too have been guilty of sitting at a table and on my Instagram or Facebook and simply not present with the other person. I have been more excited to receive, ‘likes’ on my location than converse with a person. Social media has opened the flood gates to being bad to one another. A quick dick pic, a drunken Facebook message, a Snapchat to someone you shouldn’t. There isn’t any shame in how we behave, because it’s just a random person. It didn’t really happen, it isn’t really cheating or wrong, is it? I sort of miss the idea of how it used to be. When I would watch films as a kid and the characters would call ‘home’ phone numbers and waited to see each other at school to flirt and hold hands. When breakups happened, they were face to face and everyone cried and sad music played. When the script called to give your lover another chance. A real solid second chance. A time when you didn’t have the fantasy or distraction of endless porn sites and people exposing themselves with a stroke of a key on an iPhone. A time when you didn’t ever feel the need to check someones web history. I always give someone a chance. I am a hopeless romantic yes, and not everyone is. But wouldn’t that be nice? To go on a date, doing something completely random and just being with that someone completely. Put your stupid phone down when you are with another person. Your Instagram can wait, and that Snapchat isn’t going anywhere. Be with that human right in front of you and have a little realness again. Life is too short and the grass will never be greener than it is today.

Here we go. After so many years of having this idea, I am finally here to do it. I’ve had a million different ideas for what I wanted my blog to be about. Life, travel, fashion, music, relationships…I could never make up my mind. So I thought I just wasn’t ready to do it. Well I realized in my most recent turn of life events that there is never a ‘good’ time for really anything. I will never be fully ready, but I have always been prepared. So I suppose this is the launch of something new. I am just going to be honest. I have been a competitive athlete my entire life, and with that I have this untold pressure to always excel in other peoples eyes. Well that is simply not real life, people fall, people fail, sometimes people really suck. Sometimes I make mistakes and so do you. In general I do feel that I have been living a rather extraordinary life. I am not sure if this blog will matter to anyone but me, but for the first time in a very long time I don’t care. I need it for me. I feel the need to get these thoughts and pictures and music out there in one place even if I am the only viewer. If you would care to join me on this new adventure, well then get ready. It isn’t always going to be all shiny and sexy. It will be a little dark at times. It is going to be a roller coaster of my little life. My grammar will be all over the place. It will not be perfect or consistent. All I can say is that I am just going to do and say what I want. That is that, and here we go.